date: Thursday, August 31, 2006 @ 12:11 am
title: Prelims
Mug. Eat. Sleep. Chat. Mug. Sleep.
date: Wednesday, August 16, 2006 @ 11:35 pm
title: Confession.
Alright. I have a confession and a resolution:
I have to stop visiting r.n.website that often afterall.
www.revivalnation.org - click it with caution. Its addictive.
Its turning into a habit everytime when I'm online.
Clicking randomly. Looking for something new on the website.
Today. A new scroll bar is added.
Church with a mission. Mission Impossible. Impossible is nothing. Nothing is everything. Everything has something. Something is happening. Happening is church. Church with a mission. Mission Impossible. Impossible is nothing. Nothing is everything.
Revolution of Love. Me.
date: Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 11:01 pm
title: Failure..
Sometimes when people made up their mind about somethings.
Suddenly your suggestions and feelings no longer have any significance.
Therefore I laugh at my own foolishness and childish presumptions.
They just don't care. What can I do? Nothing.
Alice. Tell me what to do?
To cry or to laugh.
date: Thursday, August 10, 2006 @ 10:46 pm
title: Getai..
Save me from getai!
Argh.
date: @ 10:41 am
title: Doggy..
I am bored.
"Alice!"No noise. Not a single sound was heard."Alice! Where are you?""Here.""Where?"Maybe it is rather amusing to see kids talking to thin air and later explaining that they have an invisible dog that can talk. Argh. I was in that fad for a long period. I thought that I was eccentric. totally. But I guess not.
"Alice?"" beside you.""Argh! you scared me!""Sorry. You were looking for me?""uh-huh"I reckoned having an inivisible dog wasn't exciting enough. It just do whatever you command. Boring. Dry. A robot with four legs. I then asked myself what do I really want? Although dog is man's best friend but its getting tiring.
"Alice. How have you been?""Very good. I played hide and seek with my friends and sang songs. Oldies! ""Really Alice. How have you been?""I thought I just told you? What's wrong?""I will keep on asking the same question until you answer me truely."I had to let my dog go. I can't ask Mummy or Daddy to do it for me. Only I can see him. feel him. smell him. One fine day when the cloud was thick and the sun was swallowed by it, I told Mummy that I was gonna play outside. She refused as it was going to rain soon. Doggy was looking at me sadly. He wanted to run about the fields and find his hidden bone out in the spacious land. But the unforgiving weather denied him of it.
"I felt lonely.""I am sorry.""You always say sorry! I have enough of this! Always the case.""Things are different now and I can possibility ignore my duties.""Excuses! When you needed me I came to the rescue...""Wait a min. So you say I deliberately.."
"Yes!"As the days past, I have more work to do. I left the house early and returned late. Somedays I was so exshausted after the day's work but still managed to climb into my bed and slept soundly. Doggy was nowhere to be seen. Maybe he knew I was busy and didn wan to interrupt me or maybe he's asleep when I was homed and still asleep when I left in his dog house.
"Com'on! I have a candy!""Just stop your nonsense! I am talking serious here!""Fine. I am sorry.""Stop using that word! Its damn irritating!"One day, it just got to me suddenly - where is he? - I searched for him inside out of my whole house but not a single strain of fur. hair. whatever it was nowhere to be found. I begun to feel anxious about his safety. Thousand thoughts ran thru my stressful mind - I have lost doggy.
"Alice. Lets talk serious."A unconfortable silence invaded the room."I give up. I just can't take it anymore. This whole thing!""What thing?""Precisely. Nothing!"I cried my lungs out loud for hours, spilling tonnes of tears on the floor. Feeling all edgy and broken. My howling voice echoed in my head as I lost my voice. My eyes were swelling with dried tear marks surrounding the hollowness. I lost doggy.
"I want the candy!""No. Stop it! Its too late.""Why? Tell me!""Because I have been lying to myself since the beginning. You dun exist."Years passed. Memory of doggy still remain so alive inside of me. Maybe its because only I know that he existed or maybe others did by remain obilivous? I will never know.
"Alice!"
No noise. Not a single sound was heard.
"Alice! Where are you?"Still nothing."I was right. You dun exist."
date: Wednesday, August 02, 2006 @ 10:33 pm
title: J.
I'm Jester.
Just do it!
